alexismariex:

My second tattoo, my favorite Paramore lyrics. These lyrics have always meant so much to me, but they do now more than ever before. Last week I went to the doctor and was told I have anxiety,depression and ADHD and that I have suffered from these for quite some time now. I was told that I needed to go on medication for these, and that I am going to need therapy also. I always knew I was depressed, especially after my dad died 10 months ago,but I tried to hide it and not deal with the feelings I had. I thought that if I ignored the constant feelings of guilt and sadness, that they would just go away..But bottling these feelings up for 10 months and even before that did just the opposite for me. I realized that trying to ignore the feelings I was having, wasn’t making them going away, but making them worse and worse as each day passed. I had tried to hide these feelings for such a long time, I came to a point where I couldn’t even try to anymore. Last week I finally talked to my mom about everything, and told her everything I was feeling and have ever felt, and she said we were going to go through this together, so the first step was telling my mom and then doing something about it, which was to see a doctor. After being told I have ADHD, anxiety, and depression, the lyrics mean that much more to me. For me personally, the lyrics mean that as much as you try to hide from something, and pretend there is nothing wrong and that everything is okay, eventually you have to face reality and deal with whatever you’re hiding from.