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The story: The thing about the lotus flower is that they begin life at the bottom of murky, swamp waters. They then begin their life growing out of the waters, and eventually bloom on top of the waters, revealing to the world their spotless, untouched petals. In order for swamp waters to stay flourished with the flowers, they must die in the ground

 where they were born, therefore, in order for a lotus to live, it must die. This is easily my most sentimental tattoo thus far (Idea wise at least…) I’ve fought quite the inner battle with myself, negativity, depression, just continuously at war with myself. When I was in sixth grade (around the time I first began this inner suffering), my English teacher read us a story on a little girl stealing lotus flowers from a swamp by her house in Japan. This story has stuck with me for almost 8 years, I could never get the idea out of my head. I still struggle…quite a bit sometimes, but I’ve found some new found positive influences that keep me going. I’ve overcome being harassed in school, watching my family fall apart, friends grow distance, people I once shared school hallways with pass away, people I love leave, hurting myself, hating myself and all the inbetween negative aspects of myself fighting against myself. I feel as though somewhere along the way I had lost myself, out grown myself, dwelled on the bad, and failed to see the life I’ve been given. 

I’m still trying to find the light in situations and overcoming the things that really morph me into someone I’m not, the only difference now is, I have hope and faith in myself. I can live in the “murky” waters, in all the terrible things life has to offer, and mean things people have to say, I can live with the negativity, but every so often…I float to the top. I see the good, the fresh air and sun, and that is when it’s all worth it. I know that there is a long way to go, but how I handle it, is what makes me who I am. Without struggle, there is no room for progress. I know that one day, I’ll see the light everyday. I’ll be above all my demons and everything will be behind me. One day everything will be okay, I’ll be okay for good. For now, I’m looking up towards the surface of the water.

Posted by choke0nsunn
  August 29, 2012 at 08:17pm
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    LOOK AT THE NOTES. :’)
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